2082

Feelings

Today, my feeling's all jumbled up. I dunno what's wrong with me, I'm feeling so heavy inside. To be honest, I'm not the type that opens up to people. I find it extremely difficult to share myself to others. I really want to have someone to talk to - to express everything within me, but whenever that someone's in front of me, waiting patiently for me to fire away, somehow the words just stop coming. It's the kind of feeling that you want a certain person to know, but you just don't know how to share it or rather, it's better to leave the feeling settle down inside you, unspoken and untouched. I guess I can only put my current feelings into words of poem. At least, the burden will be lifted by writing this down and sharing it on my blog.

This is a poem written by me, which indicates my feelings at this moment. If you don't get the meaning, it's fine because it's not well-written and is not meant to be understood, honestly. It's just me, expressing something deep from my heart.

2082

by Kai Seng

Carols were ringing in my ear

Snow trodden upon by the deer

A wish from an angel within

Tears of joy sparkled therein

A story well written

A mail worth gettin'

The path was of roses

Hence, we let the tale flows

Songs of happiness

Chirps of peacefulness

Charming smiles aplenty

Joyful laughter too many

Then the ink's all blotchy

Essays turned patchy

A monster kept inside

Tightly chained and tied

He was never let loose

Towards the hangman noose

I sat there biting my time

Repeatedly tossing the dime

A century of gap

A deep pit of trap

One successful climb out

Cruelly greeted by the drought

All was then silent

He stopped being violent

The tale was harshly ended

Ink bottle was tightly capped

Now the quill dances

Carols faintly reminisces

Tears of pain flow

The deer is back on the snow.